My song

2009 is ending. Right now I don't know how to finished. Can't feel relieved 'cause I'd be ignoring the learned things, but these are some of the few things I can conclude of this experienceful change, and during 2010 I'll try to put in practice.

Always think before acting. It can save you lots of arguments!

In "this world" if you have a second chance, use it good 'cause it may never happen too often.

First impressios are great! But it's better if there's always a second one and a third one and so on.

Time is money. Don't waste it on things that are not gonna cause revenue.

No matter how bad the experience was, there's always good, always learning.

People come and go. Friends are few. Spend your energies only with your friends, not to everyone. You'll be tired eventually.

Give yourself time to know the person and to know yourself interacting with the person.

Let the others bring something to the table sometimes. You don't have to do all the work.

Fail is not an option but it might happen. The only thing you can do is keep going and know that you have a lot ahead.

You shouln't talk to loud. It might come to you and hit you in the ass eventually.

"Friend" tag is a privilege. Don't give it to anyone.

Know that you are valuable. Be proud of what you are but always push yourself harder to be better.

So this is just a few on a life of learning. Let's hope that 2010 brings more learning. There's one last thing I learned in order to make all of the previous thing relevant:

You are not what you say. You are what you do and specially what you do to change who you are.

Thank you 2009 but I think is time to go and let 2010 come!

Just gonna make my dreams come true! And 2010 is going to be the year to start!

I think it's time to write again
Time to come to realize that life is just moment and I can not get stucked there
I'm becoming stronger, and life's not easy... That doesn't mean it's not beautiful
People use to confuse the word "beautiful" with "easy"
I have to value what I learn, rescue what I can, but not regret any moment I've had
My past has made me who I am
The decision it's just mine, and none can take for me
I think it's time to move on
To take responsibility for my acts, change what I don't like, and do it, really do it
It's not time to go back to where you were and you suffered like hell
I think it's time to grow up, to think before acting
Gotta move on, and move on it's not equal to get over it
It's getting over it and learn, and learn consiously
I can do whatever I want and just if I decide
Decisions, gotta make the right ones to get great things in life
Think, act, learn
I think what I've been saying through the time in this blog is becoming tangible
I think it's time now and I think I've come to realize the use
I think it is time to smile, 'cause what's the use of crying.
I think the time has come. I hope so.

Somebody should talk to us like that everyonce in a while. It could change a lot of bad attitudes.

After being away for a little time, and after one of the greatest learnings (in order to be modest) in my whole life, I come to write again, to connect my thoughts with my actions.

Now in a stage of knowing myself, of prooving what I say I learned, I came to realized that there's no better way to learn than suffering it.

But, you know ? When you overcome all this tests, and proove that you're not just words, and beging to apply all the things you said you learn, you feel like flying. You feel right.

It may hurt, it may be difficult, but in the end, you see that above all those hard things, it's only you that matters in the whole world, and when that happens, your limits are your great forces, the best of your powers, your secret weapon.

I miss, I can deny it; but now, I have the strenght to go on for ever. As many times I need. Nobody can pull me down. None can tell me or make me do what I do not want to.

I still overthink, but in the end I just remember that day by day is the formula that works.

I still cry, but nobody has to know. None cares but me.

I am changed, improved.

I'm pretty sure right now about three things.

1. I still got a lot of things to learn. A lot.
2. More difficult times might come.
3. I have the strenght to proove that I can overcome anything.

Right now, I think I'm a little bit better than I was yesterday.

I just hope that one day I can say:

I am EVOLUTION.

How to undo what's done
How to correct what's been screwed up
How to make all of the shit that may surround you just in an instant go away
How to keep sanity and calm when the things were worst that you could've ever imagined

I wonder, I want to know

What's done can not be different
Actions speak louder than words
And you are what you say
What changed ? When did you turned out into somethig like that?

I guess the basis are not enough, are they?
There has to be an extra factor
What went wrong
When went wrong

Now, let's look at the past but let's not live it
Now, let's live the present, enjoy it
You never know if you're going to be there on the next second
Enjoy and be happy. Enjoy and build a great future, in case there is.

After all the shit you have to know it
After all the thing, and through all these stuff
I'm there
And you have... you. There's no need of some else.
Theres nothing you can do.
Nor erase nor delete. Just change.
Change is good, if you lean, if you go back to your past and see what's been more constant.
You live, you learn, and I can not be more sure about this: you are going to learn, you are going to be someone new after that... Hopefully.

Primer post en español. Creo que se lo merece.

Tengo miedos.
Eso no me hace cobarde.
Me hace cobarde no enfrentarlos.
Los estoy enfrentando.

No tengo miedo de ser quien soy.
Ya lo derroté.
Tengo miedos aún.
Donde no los tuviera, no podría ser valiente.

No me da pena decir que lloro.
Llorar me hace sentir muchas cosas.
Sentir me hace humano.
Soy humano, no una piedra.

Ahora lloro y aprendo.
No me quedo llorando nada más.
Hoy lloré por primera vez de alegría.
Se siente mucho más cuando es por alegría.

Soy humano porque siento.
Ahora soy aun más humano.
Me gusta sentirme así.
Sentir mucho, y estar feliz.

El orden está llegando.
No entiendo cómo está pasando, solo sé que llega.
Sólo como las fuerzas divinas lo pueden hacer.
Energía positiva. Ley de atracción. Palabras sabias de mi ángel de la guarda.

Soy Juan David Betancur.
Tengo miedos.
Lloro.
Tengo muchas cosas por cambiar.

Pero tengo apoyo
Sé quién soy
Sé qué quiero.
No estoy solo.

Tengo P.E. y atre orden, cosas muy buenas y mucha felicidad.
Tengo amigos que me apoyan y están ahí, que me hace dar más felicidad.
Tengo fuerzas para levantarme el número de veces que lo necesite.
Más importante, me tengo a mí, la persona más importante en mi vida.

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

This year I have learned, I've made mistakes, and I've learned more. As a famous author says: "Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes".

The great mistakes in my life, the great learning so far...

1. I took a decision that right now I think I never should've made it. Now I have to swallow it down.
   
   
2. After I was knocked out three times, I know that I have the strenght to stand by myself and keep walking on.
   
   
3. I just realized that I'm more near of knowing myself completely that I have ever been before.
   
   
4. I can. Nobody can not pull me down.
   
   
5. Life is ironic sometimes. I learned how to manage a team when I couldn't manage it anymore.
   
   
6. I never end up my term as VP, when I always thought I was going to do it.
   
   
7. I've come to be very important for some people. I am good.
   
   
8. I can not worry for what I can not control.
   
   
9. This year has been the more intense year I have ever had in my life.
   
   
10. Change is the word that summarize this year.
    
    
11. It's not that I like change or not, I just live it.
    
    
12. People can hurt me as much as I let them.
    
    
13. I have to select better. Some people are not as they seem to be, and it's not them, it's me.
    
    
14. Nobody is bad. There are not absolute extremes.
    
    
15. Walking in the others shoes is hard, specially when they don't fit in your feet, but eventually you have to do it more oftenly.
    
    
16. You must be bigger than the other and show the reaction they're not expecting.
    
    
17. Give yourself time to know everything fully. That will take pain away that might come.
    
18. Limits are good. The most difficult limits are the ones that you put in your heart, because if you don't put it, they can make you suffer the most.
    
    
19. You can never judge the actions of people. Don't talk to loud, it might come back to you and slap you on the face.
    
    
20. You must act the way you wouldn't do it sometimes, to find something you wouldn't find on the other way.
    
    
21. Life is life. We are the ones who chose how to take it.
    
    
22. You can't escape from the things you did, wether good or not. They run faster than you and they're going to take you eventually.
    
    
23. Age doesn't mean maturity. Experience does.
    
    
24. Experience is not the number of situations in your life that you may live.
    
    
25. The mature person is the person with a lot of experience.
    
    
26. Experience is the capacity of somebody to take the full ammount of learning from just one situation.
    

There are just a few things I have learned. The fairytales doesn't exist by itself, you have to be patient and build it little by little. We don't know your future, that's why we have to live our present so well in order to guarantee a great future as well.

A great future is a future that is surrounded by experience, by wise experience.

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

To stop, to start, to continue; a thecnic to improve in anything.
Now, I have learned that this is what we need to do sometimes in our lives to make it better, to know ourselves, to survive in the sea that suddenly born when you're not even expecting it, to be better and faithful to ourselves all the time.

To stop getting affected about the things we can't control. To stop trying to understand and to make things happen the way we want, when we can not control it, just because we can't. We can not control people, and our lives are affected on a different way for them, always, and that's the magic of life, always changing.
To stop worrying for the things we can not predict. Illusions and hope are great, but if they don't give you expectation but sadnees, then it's not good. You're not doing any good to yourself, and you should have happiness or learning in order to keep going, if you do not have any of them, then it's time to go on.

To start looking at the world with P.E. One exceptional friend and guardian angel told me that if you sorround your life by negative thoughts, then you attract them, and it's so simple, if you think negative things, you're not happy and you're not holding on to anything to go on. To start looking the things as a whole, and not as details, talking about the people, because you can not feel what the other feels, and maybe that person is just feeling bad at the moment and you can not judge because that someone didn't pay any attention. ¿What's my place on that person's life? That's the question you should ask for yourself and answer looking backwards, into the past, into the good moments you had. To start projecting yourself into the future as a successful person, but living day by day, without worrying about tomorrow, because we can't control what we can't predict and what's the point in wasting energies on that? To start being whoever you want to be, as you want to be seen. Just start, and you'll see the rest happens by inercy.

To continue with your escence, though you have a lot of changes in your life, your escence, your soul must remain the same. To remain positive. To continue changing lives, because that's what makes you special, when you see that somebody next to you is not the same, it's better thanks to you, that made her/him take that first step. To continue discovering a lot of new and fascinating things, inside of you and on the outside. To continue having the change. To continue becoming a better person, prepared to make anything, just because you're cappable of doing anything you want.

Change it, Do it, Keep Going; you can do anything, just with Positive Energy, think that tomorrow will be better than today because I'm going to make that happen. That if I fall, I'll have the strenght to stand up and keep walking on. I can do anything, I just have to believe it. I just have to believe in me as the others do it.

I can dream again. Let's dream. Let's fly into the golden sky, and you'll get to see the beauty of the effort you make to be happy. The beauty of YOURSELF.

I would've waited for you If you just had asked for.
I would've died for you If you weren't already dead.
I would've loved you 'till the end If you have ever needed it.
I would've jumped out from a building If you just hadn't pushed me first.

All the time and the same, and all these tears must be away.
All the wounds in my soul, shall be healed luckily soon.

For you I grieve.
For you I learned.
For you I sang 'till my lungs gave up
And just received the saddest goodbye.

Let me reast in peace.
Let me forgive this please.
Let us pretend that nothing happened.
Let us believe love has burned...Just burned.

I'll try to move on
And always be walking on.
From this hard place when I'm stucked
I'll raise and try to reborn.

I wish you a great life
With the one you truly love by your side.
Whish you well and a great fortune
I'll be making mine first by leaving you.

This is my song for you.
This is the song to my heart.
This is the cry I denied.
This is the love that have just died.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am the song that will never end.
I am the love of family and friend.
I am the child who has come to rest
In the arms of the Father
who knows him best.

When you see the sunset fair,
I am the scented evening air.
I am the joy of a task well done.
I am the glow of the setting sun.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!

Did you say it ?
I love you
I dont ever wanna live witout you
You changed my life
Did you say it ?
Make a plan
Set a goal
Work toward it
But every now and then look around
Drink it in
Did you say it ?
'Cause this is it
It might all be gone tomorrow

When you walk through a storm hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.

I want to wait for the unwaited.

I want to have what I never imagined I would ask for.

I want to sing a truly happy love song.

I want to have one thought all the time.

I want to have the guts to decide over my life.

I want the courage to remain still.

I want the perfect things.

I want to deserve everything that I'm waiting for.

I want to let go easily.

I want to forget faster than easily.

I want to think less and get more.

I want to want and get it immediately.

I want to grow up lower.

I want to be the world to somebody someday.

I want to believe that people can change.

I want to have the skill to lay down and forget for a moment.

I want to be heroic.

I want to have the best out of everything.

I want to be optimistic all the time.

I want to change a lot of things but it's going to be a hard fight.

I want to live a dream.

I want to give excellent results.

I want to make an impact.

I want a need.

I need a want.

I want a lot of stuff.

I want to stop now.

I want to let go. I want to learn to let go.

I want to reach the point when everything is just not important anymore.

I know that I have to let go in order to move on, but how can you make a need out of moving on ?

I think it's just like a desease, the most contagious desease ever. It just jumps person by person but never leaves me in peace.

I also know that it's all in me, and I have to give the first step but that's the part of the equation that I still haven't figured out yet.

Everyone's sick of this situation, and believe I'm the person who's the most sick of it. Just try to swallow it down and kill it inside you.

In this moment I have no clue how to let go, I'm still finding that part, but believe me, when I figure it out, my life will be so much better. At least I hope so.

Life doesn't give us anything for free, we just have to fight, and even if that is not enough, we still have to learn more in order to earn what we think we deserve.

Right now I realized that "hard" is not enough.

Right now I realized that "tired" is not an option, at least if you don't want to be a falier.

Right now I realized that the right thing to do is not always the easy one.

Right now I realized that you can't get what you want all the time.

Right now I realized that a friendship should overcome anything.

Right now I realized that life is about desicions.

Right now I realized that YOU ARE WHAT YOU DO, NOT WHAT YOU SAY.

Right now I realized that you have to fight harder than hard if you want it successful.

Right now I realized that three effective is better than one. Three uneffective is worst than one, even than zero.

Right now I realized that you shouldn't talk too loud.

Right now I realized that time is money.

Right now I realized that the only thing we can do with mistakes is to learn from them.

Right now I realized that accepting the truth is not easy.

Right now I realized that words have power.

Right now I realized that what you want is not always what you need.

Right now I realized that what you need is what you may want, but in the deep inside it's all a lie, you don't want it.

Right now I realized that lonelyness can do more damage than love.

Right now I realized that love can do a lot of damage.

Right now I realized that no matter what, I have to turn my head off to the war.

Right now I realized that I'm not a quitter and I'm prepared to fail.

Right now I realized that a good intention is not enough.

Right now I realized that life is not complex, we are the complex ones.

Right now I realized that complex troubles make us grow.

Right now I realized that I've never understood anything that better.

Right now I realized that I'm writing too much.

Right now I realized that it's time to stop writing.

Oftenly we get what we need and not what we want, and most of the time (in order to be modest) we feel that what we want is just what we need, is just what will make us feel better all the time.

Getting everything that is wished is just a feeling that no one knows yet.

Sometimes I try to see it in the logical way, and say that what we want brings bad results instead of doing good to us, but, who the hell is going to guarantee that.
It seems like we have a supernatural being that predicts what is going to happen with us, but I think different, I think we deserve to choose, and to get a chance, just to try it, accepting the concequences that this may bring.

But, in the other hand, we're so complicated! We're never satisfied, we are always asking and begging for anything, and as the wise people use to say, we can't have it all, we need to have a motivation to play this life game.

For the moment, I know what's the lesson that life wants to teach me, but I'm such a bad learner when it comes down to things like these, let's hope that someday life can give what I want and what I need, because everytime it's becoming one.

Just wait, hold on and wait...

Sometimes I wonder what makes us change, those things that, in life, begin to tell us how to THINK, how to ACT, how to BE.
The nostalgic moments begin to invade us and keep pushing and ordering us that we have to be more like them, that you could do more with it.
When the not-so-good moments came, creating storms of confusions in our minds and making us learn by hitting us in the ass.
Change, a weird word. Bad moments, good ones, it doesn't matter, it's always teaching us.

Think, the hardest one but the most important, what is going to define what we truly are.
Act, the easy one but the most dangerous one.
Be, the uncertain one, the final but the unreacheable one. The desire of being better everyday is invading us all this time because we don't know everything, "anything". But that is good, that's what makes us evolve, what creates beautiful minds.

As the time is going by, I came to notice that the wise person, never stops learning, that the change doesn't begging with ourselves, it always beggins with the person who affects our environment making us think, philosophise.

I think that, by accepting the unmaturity, we make it go away a little bit from our lives allowing us to be a little more near from that perfection we constantly idealize. The beautiful change.

Keep your toughts positive, because they become your words; words become your behaviour; behaviours become your habits; habits become your values; and values, become you DESTINY.

Who knows, maybe, it could be more near now. That's something I'm always going to be wondering while I do what I want to do now.

A great song to whom may know how to listen to it.

AND ANOTHER YEAR BEGINS RIGHT NOW!

Full of nostalgia for the happy moments and relieved for the bitter ones. In any case, a chance to set what you want to achieve in this new period.

Big challenges are aproaching in this 2009, and this is the perfect time to dream big and as I always say: "The only thing that does not become real, is that one which you do not believe in".

But not everything is that easy, and it's not enough with dreaming to achieve or to make whishes for everything we want this year. We have to be ready to fight ourselves, to keep pushing our limit all the time.

You can't imagine all the things that a human is cappable of when all the mental barriers are teared down.

"I can not do it" is not acceptable. This comes out when we think life is a fairytale and then, we feel so overwhelmed that we prefer to give up than to do whatever it takes to make that dream come true.

So, let's be prepared to break down the wall, to have in mind always all the things we want and to give our best to achieve that 2009 fairytale!

I whish you all have the happiest new year and that 2009 comes with success and memorable moments for everyone.